If only (Tag:Dimitri)

Dimitri didn't realize he had passed out until he opened his eyes again. With the usual headache, but also with a Strange feeling of his cheek as if someone stroke over it before. Then he realized who the person in front of him was. "Celia!" Was it good that she was here with him? What should he say..? He sat up. "You're here..." Dimitri could barely look at her, she looked so sad. Neither could he look away though.

Celia shook a little when he called her name once more. His look confused her. Sam as his words did not seem to make sense. "Yes I am here." She answered. Looking at him a bit confused. Before she began feeling his eyes stare at her too long. "Please do not look at me like that." Celia said bringing her legs close to her. "Are you hurt?" She asked not looking at him. Simply asking if he was hurt or not. She did still worry about him and care. It wasn't like she'd persue any further show of emotions.

Geb should not look at her like that? Like what? And shouldn't he be the one saying that to her? "Ehh, I guess that's.. just my face.", he said trying to be funny. How dumb. He was dumb. Dimitri could almost see how she wanted not to be here with him. "No, I'm not. Are..you?" Well, this question made no sense since he knew that she was hurt. Because of him. But at least she seemed to be fine on the outside, no bruses or anything. That was something. After a moment of silence he spoke up again:" Hey, uhm... about earlier... I didn't mean to... I don't know. To yell at you or anything..." He was just terrible when it came to serious talking, always been always will. It was just very uncomfortable. Normally he didn't care about some girls' feelings, but he did care for hers.

Celia listened to him. Looking up at him she was a bit annoyed but did not show it. Why was he even asking if she was hurt? Celia let is slide . Letting the silence fill the room. It was a rather awkward silence. However he decided to break it. He was saying sorry? Celia did not look at him. Sitting against the wall. "Forget it. It was your good right to go and fuck however.." Celia said avoiding eye contact. "It is not like we had agreed on anything." She said. Then remembering the ring she had awoken with. Placing her hand over the other. It was still there. She had almost forgotten. "I overreacted about it.." Celia clenched her teeth. She tried to hide her anger but it made her feel bitter.

She was right, they didn't. And yes he had the right to do whatever he wanted. But why did he still feel guilty, even now when she agreed with him? He didn't really trust her words. Didn't women always say things they didn't mean? Fuck, how would he know? it wasn't like he could read minds or anything. Dimitri sighed and stroke through his black hair. "You don't look like you mean that.." He looked at her, but didn't dare to approach her further.

Celia sighed. She didn't want to have this conversation. Celia looked at him. Meeting those stupid blue eyes of his. She dropped the emotionless expression just a bit. "Then what am I suppose to say?" Celia asked. Showing sadness in her eyes for just a moment before she looked away again. "It does not matter if I mean what I say." She clenched her teeth once more. Even if she would confess her love or any other thing. It didn't matter she would be slapped in the face again and again. "It did not matter before it does not matter now." Celia could still see the look on his face when he woke up and saw her. He ran towards her as if he had forgotten it all. Did he even mean what he said? Celia grinned a bit and looked at Dimitri again. "Besides, We will never make it out of here alive. Who gives a damn what was true and what wasn't? We are going to die anyway. Those things we said about getting out of here... As if that is ever going to happen."

"It matters to me. You don't have to tell lies, just be honest.If you hate me, just say so..." His voice was calm and he finally went over to her, sitting down in front of her. She started bubbling nonsense about not surviving and he put a hand on her knee. He has been at that point too but he found his hope again. "Celia, look at me. Don't say such things okay? There has to be a way out and we will find it. Don't loose hope okay? Promise me that you won't give up."