Never let go (TAG: Jane)

As if the headache was already just normal, Jane woke up not noticing it too much anymore. However it as well might have been because her whole body still felt just so numb and exhausted after the emotional rollercoaster of the latest torture happening the kidnapper had Jane attend to. Even though her body hadn´t been actually hurted at all during that deadly wedding, her heart and feelings only had to suffer and endure more.

However when Jane then eventually as well opened her eyes and got see directly in a familar as well as loved face. The moment she recognized Miguel tears automatically started to flow down her cheeks. "Miguel!" She screamed out while she hugged him right after. In fact she wanted to say so much more besides his name, to tell him about all of her feelings but her mouth felt like at least in that very moment with her mouth dried out all she wanted and actually could do was to enjoy the moment being with Miguel and in his arms.

Tears welled up in his eyes. "Thank God, I'm with you again! Oh, Jane, Jane, please.. Please, never.. Never leave me again", he praised inwardly. Jane was the last person in here who could bring his sanity back. What's funny, she already did that for the whole year before the "accident"... and, gosh, how stupid he was! When he thought that maybe he didn't feel the same as she, that they were just friends! When he got seduced by his own past, by Ariel's body. He was such a fool! Poor little bird, she didn't deserve to be here as well, but she has chosen her own way to get out of this madness. Miguel hoped that she was finally happy. Yes, of course he didn't appreciate suicide, still, he couldn't blame Ariel for her for her act. Partly he even was guilty for what happened. If only he was conscious that moment, if only he didn't want her, if only she didn't start to ask him questions, if only they both stoped living in the past, everything could be different... But he didn't want it to be different. He wanted to get back in Paris. With Jane. To ask her to be his. Forever.

His thoughts got back to her. Jane. There she was. Alive. With him. With a warm smile stretching his lips, Miguel responded on her hug, clasping his hands around her. He closed his eyes, keeping patting her head, and said, in a voice choking with emotion, "Jane!" He pulled away, held her by her shoulders and looked her straight in her beautiful eyes. "I love you," he whispered and his lips met hers in a soft heartfelt kiss.

Jane had just had tightened the hug when suddenly pulled her away. Once the male started to say the famous three words everything happened much too fast for the female. Before she could even realize the words meaning she already found their lips meeting in the most wonderful kiss she ever got to experience so far. After she had given into it for a moment now it was Jane who pushed Miguel away. Was this really reality and not just a dream? Did she heard right? Wasn´t she just immagening things now? "What did you just say? Did ... did I hear correctly? You ... you ... love me? Truly? Like ... as a lover and not only as a friend?" She questioned, just having to make sure she didn´t misinterpreted things before she would let out all her emotions as well.

He smiled in response to her words. "I do! I really do," he said, with tears welling into his eyes. "I love you. Since the moment I bumped in you, I felt something!" Miguel gently stroked Jane's cheek and ran his hand down her neck. "And now I want you to know this, before..." For a moment, he held his breath and his smile immideatly turned into a frown, "Before it would be too late."

He caught her hands in his, and linked their fingers. "Jane", he said soflty, his voice slighly trembeling, "I made mistakes. Horrible mistakes." He remebered how he touched Ariel, her lips, her bloodied wrist... He gulped, looked up, pulled himself together, and continued his narrative, "I'm not the man you knew, Jane.. I want you to know.. The truth. I don't know if i will be able to tell this anybody else in here, but i know that YOU should know the truth, or else," he glanced quickly at the camera, "It can be used against us."

He turned his head back and looked right into her beautiful deep blue eyes, "I.. I will tell you how everything was,.. From the beginning. So, when i got here I was in one room with a guy. Cale. You saw him too, he.. He died in the "russian roulette" game." And, after that... I got in one room with a girl... Her name was Ariel. She... She was my ex-girlfriend. She killed herself."

The man took a little pause, and then he said, "I... I feel that it's my fault. I.. After that game I was weak. I wanted to get support. Despite the fact that we broke up, she was really kind towards me and I... I gave her in response the worst thing I could ever give... I gave her hope. The hope that we can still be together, that I still love her... But I didn't. I lived with memories, I lived with past, but only that moment I realized that everything I wanted, everything i needed... Was always here."

Miguel tightened the grip around Jane's hands. "And.. That girl.. She slapped me in the face and I accidentally injured my temple and fell unconscious. When I have finally awaken she was already..." He swallowed again. All these days he kept those thoughts inside his head and even at the wedding he felt much more stronger and more... alive than he was now. It was his fault. Yes, this place drove people crazy, but it was he, he became the last trigger!

"I don't know if you believe me or if you still want to be with me after what I've told you... But i promise I will get you out of here, Jane. One way or another, I promise".

"I don't want another innocent soul to die because of me", he thought and forced himself not to cry. Men don't cry.

His words were dancing around in Janes head while her heart beated faster and faster. Crying tears of happyness she smiled at him. "I love you too Miguel, with all my heart I do." Jane then said, wanting to kiss him so badly in that moment before the male went to explain himself or rather simply tell her everything she hadn´t known until then.

Not to surpise Jane was shocked about all the things her beloved had gone through. Not only he had to watch two of his roommates die, also one of them was his ex-girlfriend. Sure, they obviously broke up and he was in love with Jane now but still of course there surely were some feelings left for each other. After all they did share a past and in a situation like this wicked game no matter how bad things might have been between them, most of it was unimportant in here and only the good things mattered and above that even to simply survive. Still Jane would lie if she said she didn´t feel hurt.

On the one hand she felt so very sorry for the terrible loss Miguel had to go through during the time he had spent here and since she didn´t got to actually see anyone she really knew die just yet she could only immagine how awefull that must be. On the other hand of course it pained Jane to hear about that Ariel. She got to experience something with Miguel she possible might never be able to since the two of them could really die right now at any moment. But also he had given her hope while he knew Jane was there too.

"I ... I think I need some time to think." She eventually said after a moment of silence. "But while I do so could you ... do you think you could just hold me for now? Please?" She wasn´t too sure yet what to really think of all she just learned or rather how to actually deal with it. Should she just go on and kiss Miguel like she had wanted to not too long ago? Should she keep her distance? There was still one thing she was sure about though. She did want to have him close. After all now she eventually had realized what she was really feeling for him and she knew she would only hate herself if she would drive Miguel away completely knowing how awefully less time they would most likely have together.